Throughout the 1950s, Stevens received numerous revelations of his calling as an apostle. He not only heard the Lord speak to his heart about it, but others prophesied to him about it, as well. His initial response was not one of faith, as Stevens had a difficult time thinking of himself as an apostle.1, 2 It was easy to consider himself a pastor or an evangelist, but no leader in Christianity at that time was using the term apostle and Stevens thought it was beyond him to call himself by that name.
But the revelations and the prophecies about the apostolic calling did not stop, so Stevens began to seek the Lord in earnest about it. He realized that he had to accept what God had called him to be. Stevens had the revelation, and the confirmation, but he needed to accept it and believe it himself. In 1962, he spent some time in Yucaipa, California, seeking the Lord and repenting for his reluctance regarding the call of apostleship over his life.
When the Lord finally appeared to me and commissioned me, His first words to my heart were, “I had thought to kill you for your rebellion and withdrawal, but My heart turned towards you when you repented. You have another chance to do the thing I called you to do.”3
Citations
1. Stevens, John Robert: “Sensitivity: The Sin Against the Body”, This Week, June 23, 1974: John Robert Stevens, 1974. 74051701R
2. Stevens, John Robert: Acceptance: John Robert Stevens, 1967. 74071315R
3. Stevens, John Robert: “Broken”, Bonded Together, pp. 102-103: Copyright © 1974 by John Robert Stevens & The Living Word.*